you know, unemployment (not counting my VERY part time job) has not suited me as well as I had hoped. my dreams of reading all day with coffee in hand and getting fro yo every night has not exactly played out the way i thought it would. i have realized over these last few months that i am not as much of a lounger as i thought i was. the task of filling my day when i'm not working can be overwhelming at times. my hours are spent on craigslist, perusing the latest and greatest job postings. i know every category by heart. and when i get itchy, i end up on youtube, rewatching So You Think You Can Dance Clips and newscaster fails (my fav). add that to my attempt at P90X, and you have got a day, folks.
but you know what i realized? this season only lasts so long. i will only be unemployed for so long, without much responsibility. Soon enough, (i hope) some company will want me to join them, and i'm sure i will be longing for the days of coffee dates and late morning workouts. I will go from "glee clip watching while eating breakfast in pj's kendall" to "throw on heels (or just flats) and get out the door kendall". so i am trying to change my attitude, and my perspective. it is easy for me to feel overwhelmed with what's NOT happening instead of enjoying the season i am in and realizing that God has me in it for a reason. it's easy to allow myself to get discouraged or feel lame-o, and it's hard to fight those thoughts. but there is so much more enJOYment when i choose to view things in a different perspective.
just what i've been thinking about. until employment arrives, holler at me if you've got a free lunch hour or any good youtube clips :)
